Disclaimer: Part of this review was originally posted on my book blog Lauren Reads YA. I have since edited it to reflect my current feelings on the book.
by Stephanie Elliot
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary
Publication date: February 28, 2017
Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux
Sixteen-year-old Pea looks normal, but she has a secret: she has Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID). It is like having a monster inside of her, one that not only dictates what she can eat, but also causes anxiety, depression, and thoughts that she doesn’t want to have. When she falls crazy-mad in love with Ben, she hides her disorder from him, pretending that she’s fine.
At first, everything really does feel like it’s getting better with him around, so she stops taking her anxiety and depression medication. And that’s when the monster really takes over her life. Just as everything seems lost and hopeless, Pea finds in her family, and in Ben, the support and strength she needs to learn that her eating disorder doesn’t have to control her.